am i really here?

hehehehe.....

2008-03-15T15:37:41Z

piercings #2 and #3....just my ears. nothing too exciting. but i gaged them. hehehehehe.....

unescapable.....

2007-03-23T18:45:33Z

ok so heres the deal. i have an uncle in the hospital who just went through the same thing as my father only his coma lasted maybe a few days instead of twelve years. now...this happens to be my favorite uncle and one of the three family members left on my fathers side. now in the past there was a lot of crap between my mother and my fathers side of the family. i get that. but because of it i was short changed in spending time with half of my family. and i have to say that beside my brother and jessica it was my prefered side of the family. now...my mother knows how much this man means to me yet everytime i let her in on our phone calls or his medical condition she goes on a tiraid and its beginning to seem like she has a script in her mind that she recites for those specific occasions. which hurts more and more everytime i hear it. the last time she did that i barely spoke to her for two days and i didnt go home. and that was as recent as last weekend. one would think that as much as she tried to protect me from my fathers situation that she would sympathize knowing that i almost had to go through it again. but instead she read me the riot act. i just dont understand why she cant let the past go...and understand that my uncle loves me just as much as she does. and wuld give me the world if he could. i dont think she quite understands that shes hurting me in ways she never thought she could. this is so frustrating!
so do you think it would be wrong of me to spend as much time with him as i can when he moves back to clearwater?

sorry i just had to get that out.

forget it.....i finally give up.....

2007-02-16T01:03:00Z

so it seems to be that in my life history repeats itself even after ived learned better and vowed to never let it happen again. yeah im a whore.....its true. and it started out as such a good day.

it had to be you.....

2006-12-19T22:09:49Z

so the van wezel show were doing at the theatre right now has a cast of two that you may recognize. the old woman played fran dreschers mother on the nanny, and the guy played adam sandlers father in the movie big daddy. just thought id share that with you all.

oh and by the way i thuroughly hate mcc.

hehehe.....

2006-11-13T03:06:36Z

lip piercing #1.....hahaha.....;)

two seconds to done.....

2006-08-07T19:45:20Z

so...last week i saw him. hung out with him. worked everything out with him. everything was good. but now its back to the way it was. and i gotta tell you that after this weekend of working all the time and not thinking about him.....i was better off. so i think my decision has changed. for the moment. i dont even care if he doesnt talk to me anyore. she can have him. ;)

hahaha.....

2006-07-29T23:17:38Z

well...that was interesting...saw him last night. it went well. im still not sure what to believe. but his stories were pretty convincing. he looked good....liked my hair...but then again who doesnt...;). hopefully things will go better now...but we'll just have to wait and see. god he looked hot...somethimes this really sucks...;)

this is getting ridiculous.....

2006-07-27T21:47:13Z

this is it...he gets one more week to attempt to see me. if i dont see him within the next week he can fuck off. im done with this.......and if my suspisions are confirmed then i think i just might have the guts by now to tell him what i think of the whole situation. this is getting fucking ridiculous!

dimlybright @ 2006-07-23T15:34:00

2006-07-23T19:34:16Z

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now. (even though i shouldnt)	✓ I don't watch much TV these days. (although i am going to laurens for tv night)	✓ I own lots of books. (most of them theatre and mcc books)
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. (kick ass glasses)	× I love to play video games.	✓ I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	× I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes. (all the time)	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	× I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
× I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now. (actually i just need a diferent job or a second one)
× I love sushi.	× I talk really, really fast.	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling. (4)
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	✓ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. (nails and eyelashes)	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
✓ I like the way that I look.	✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent.	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	× I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex.	× I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
× I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
× I have a mobile phone.	✓ I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	✓ I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone.	✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	× I want to have children in the future.
× I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before. (both)	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	× I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends.	× I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
× I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now.	✓ I have more than just my ears pierced. (eyebrow)
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (if only i knew what it was)	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	✓ I have thrown up from crying too much.	× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
✓ I fall for the worst people.	× I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	✓ I can pick up things with my toes.	✓ I can't whistle.
× I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	✓ I talk in my sleep.
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	✓ I wear a toe ring.
✓ I have a tattoo. (2)	✓ I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	✓ I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	✓ If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	✓ I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	× I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	✓ I am extremely flexible.	× I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.	✓ I smoke.	× I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
× Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	× Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me. (depends on the person)	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
✓ I can't stand being alone.	× I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	✓ I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	× I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
× I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	✓ I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
✓ I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	✓ Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	✓ I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	× I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	✓ I've gone skinny-dipping.	✓ I've performed in three plays. (or more)
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
× I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	× I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	× I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

strike three.....

2006-07-23T19:18:15Z

you know...youd think that after two i would learn.....but alas number three has lied, cheated and hurt me. even after i thought this one would last. maybe ill tell him to fuck off and maybe ill be completly stupid, forget it all and get back with him. it sucks caue i did a lot of good shit while with him...but nothing i cant do without him.....in the meantime im enjoying the fact that he has no idea that i know whats going on...but i guess only time will tell with this one.

dimlybright @ 2006-06-28T16:44:00

2006-06-28T20:45:31Z

"AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" (sorry my innermonologue...its becoming harder to keep it contained.)

hehehe.....

2006-06-03T17:53:07Z

im off to get tatoo number two!.....everyone was right these things ae adicting.....i would get my lip pierced but my eyebrow is enough to deal with.....plus while working with customers i think the eyebrow and lip would be a little too much....;( too bad. so away ashley and i go on another tatoo adventure...shed better get one this time!

.....

2006-05-31T17:52:01Z

UGH!!!!!.....

strange.....

2006-05-23T18:00:47Z

wtf!? one day everyone's fine and the next everyones acting like an ass.....this is such bullshit.....im too exhausted to deal with shit.....people need to take a chill pill!

question.....?

2006-04-23T23:39:41Z

so does anybody know what time those classes are going to start that carty is doing? cause times would be very helpful to me. thanks

long day....

2006-04-13T19:51:31Z

and its just gona et longer.....

i saw somebody today that i havent seen in a while. he knew it was me but didnt let on until i was leaving.....he talked to me.....he hasnt talked to me since three penny. it was a weird day.

dimlybright @ 2006-04-11T15:04:00

2006-04-11T19:16:19Z

i thought this was rather amusing! ;)

EVENTS:
1782 - First performance of Mozart's opera The Abduction from the Seraglio.
1918 - Russian Revolution: At Ekaterinburg, Bolsheviks execute Czar Nicholas II of Russia and his family.
1951 - The novel Catcher in the Rye by J. D. Salinger published.
1963 - Timothy Leary takes LSD for the first time.
BIRTHS:
1796 - Jean-Baptiste Camille Corot, French painter (d. 1875)
1907 - Orville Redenbacher, American farmer and businessman (d. 1995)
1911 - Ginger Rogers, American actress and dancer (d. 1995)
1971 - Corey Feldman, American actor
DEATHS:
1557 - Anne of Cleves, queen of Henry VIII of England (b. 1515)
1999 - John F. Kennedy Jr., American publisher (plane crash) (b. 1960)
2005 - Pietro Consagra, Italian sculptor (b. 1920)

dimlybright @ 2006-02-11T11:01:00

2006-02-11T16:04:51Z

why does working in the box office have to be SO FLIPPIN BORING! at least i was on time today. go figure the one day im on time and its the slowest day ever!

dimlybright @ 2006-01-31T21:53:00

2006-02-01T02:53:31Z

tap dogs was awesome. thats all i have to say!

sooo.....excited!!!

2006-01-07T17:02:27Z

im going to see TAP DOGS at the end of the month!

ridiculous.....

2005-12-14T03:28:33Z

i dont know what it is but im am exausted. not sleepy tired just tired.....of pretty much everything.

dimlybright @ 2005-12-10T20:26:00

2005-12-11T01:28:12Z

THIS IS HIGHLY AMUSING. AND SAD BECAUSE ITS SO TRUE!

You know you work in Non-Profit Theatre if...
…your living room sofa spends more time on stage than you do.
…you have your own secret family recipe for stage blood.
…you've ever appeared on stage wearing your own clothes.
…you've ever driven around the back of stores looking for discards that can be used for set pieces.
…you can find a prop in the prop room that hasn't seen the light of day in ten years, but you don't know where your own vacuum cleaner is.
…you have a "Frequent Shopper" Card at the Salvation Army, Goodwill or Waterfront Mission.
…Rogers and Hammerstein is synonymous with 3 months of rehearsals.
…you start buying your work clothes at Goodwill so you can buy your costumes at the mall.
…you've ever taken time off your job to work on the show.
…you've worked out your vacation time to coincide with tech week.
…you've ever cleaned a tuxedo with a magic marker.
…your family is more than 50% of the staff.
…you've ever appeared on stage in an outfit held together with hot glue.
…you name your son Samuel and tell him that his middle name is in honor of the French side of the family.
…you've ever appeared in a show where tech week is devoted to getting the running time under four and a half hours.
…you've ever appeared on stage in an English drawing room murder mystery where half the cast spoke with southern accents.
…you think Neil Simon is a misunderstood genius.
…you've ever appeared in a show where the cast out-numbered the audience 2 to 1 .
…you've ever gotten a part because you were the only one who showed up for auditions.
…you've ever gotten a part because you were the only male who showed up for auditions.
…the audience recognizes you the minute you walk on stage because they saw you taking out the trash before the show.
…you've ever menaced or threatened anyone with a gun held together with electrical tape.
…you've ever had to haul a sofa off stage between scenes wearing an evening gown and heels.
…you've ever had to haul a sofa off stage between scenes wearing an evening gown and heels -- and you're a guy.
…you've ever played the father of someone your father's age.
…your kids know your rehearsal schedule better than you do.
…your kids know your lines better than you do.
…your kids deliver your lines better than you do.
…you get home from rehearsal and have to go back to the theatre because you forgot your kids.
…you've ever appeared in a show where an actor leaned out through a window without opening it first.
…you actually know the difference between GOOD Shakespeare and BAD Shakespeare, and have tried to explain the difference.
…you've ever had to play a drunk scene opposite someone who was really drunk.
…you've ever heard a director say "Try not to bump into the furniture" and mean it.
…the lead vocalist complains that the music keeps changing tempos, but the fact is the music is on a tape/cd
…you've ever appeared on stage with people you're related to.
…you've ever heard the head of the set construction crew say. "We'll just paint it black -- no one will ever see it."
…you've appeared in a show featuring a flushing toilet sound effect.
…you've appeared in a show featuring a flushing toilet sound effect....and you actually flushed the backstage toilet to make it.
…the set designer has ever told you not to walk on the left half of the stage because the floor's still wet - five minutes before curtain.
…you've ever been told that the reason your director has no eyebrows is because he/she handled special effects for the last show.
…you've ever said "Don't worry -- use the duct tape and if that doesn't work we'll just hot glue it."

it shouldnt have taken me this long.....

2005-12-04T02:30:43Z

R.I.P.....dad.

success!.....

2005-12-03T20:58:33Z

so i went christmas shopping after work today. and i can cross:
*joey
*jonathan
*josh
*mom
*matt
off of my list. im still working on jason. but i need mom for that one. so the oly two left on my list are matthew and mike. and i have no idea what to get either of them. ho hum. but im very pleased with the out come of todays adventure. ;)

ARGH!!!!

2005-11-30T04:16:42Z

my life SUCKS ASS! this is so unfair. i did not deserve this. on a different note its about damn time!